The more I have, the less I am

The paradox of pursuing more and achieving less.

As the Summer begins to sunset, making way for the crisp, sweet Fall to make its rise, I have been pondering a lot on all that I have tried to pursue and achieve this past season- or rather, these past few seasons.

As a child of Capitalism, I have constantly battled the need to do more, be more.

“Starting my own creative practice isn’t enough, I must reach unprecedented heights & continue rising every time I reach the next peak.” A voice I had been constantly hearing these past few years, reminding me every time I reach a milestone that I am far from my ultimate destination & retirement is not in the cards for me- at least not any time soon!

Alas! That’s how you find yourself in a perpetual state of burn out; only, it is increasingly normalized in our hustle-obsessed culture so you consider it a human condition and continue on without question.

This past Summer though, perhaps as a result of constant rumination, pondering, conversations with trusted few friends & hours spent scribbling r…